FOR the past six months, I have been seeing escorts and sex is the best I have ever had – but I am married.
My wife and I have been together for 12 years.
am 49 and she is 40. It's a second marriage for both of us.
I have two children from my first marriage and didn't want any more, but she gets on with my two kids OK.
I love her and we've been happy, by and large. Sex was never mind-blowing but it was good, regular, and my needs were met.
That all changed four years ago when she stopped wanting sex. Every time I suggested it, or even cuddled her, she would push me away and come up with some excuse not to get intimate.
I asked what I had done wrong but she wouldn't talk about it. She just expected us to just carry on with our lives as normal.
I tried to, but I miss sex with her so much. Going on holidays or for evenings out knowing we are not going to enjoy a night of passion later makes me sad. In the end, I cracked and booked to see an escort I found online.
I felt guilty the first time I went but the sex was so good I've been back several times. The girls are really friendly and it's all so easy.
I have really tried again to talk to my wife, tell her how much I love her and miss sex, but nothing changes. And even though I still love her I do get very irritated by her complete unwillingness to see my point of view, or even admit it's a problem.
Something has to give soon, and I keep thinking about having an affair. I am too young to give up on enjoying a relationship that includes some fun and passion.
I really don't want to hurt her but I don't think I am being unreasonable either.
